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- @CombatJuicebox
- I am the soldier painting the peace sign. A contradiction. Torn between the life of inexorable contentedness and steadfast perseverance.The tribulations of a young man wrecked by guilt, attempting to discover salvation through prescription behavioral medication. While it may seem like a depressingly hopeless enigma, it simply is not. Like each voracious hurricane, there is always the eye of the storm, a moment of brightness and brilliance.
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Courage
I have faced bullets, bombs, bodies. Death, devastation and destruction. I have embraced therapy regarding these memories, it has been exhausting and tough but I have made strides. However the clock is ticking and the time is approaching where I will no longer be able to tip toe. Sooner or later I will have to delve beyond the surface of my childhood abuse. I was sexually abused for four years as a child. I have admitted it, I've moved from being a victim, to being a survivor. Rapidly approaching is the reckoning, where I will face far more than simple sentences of admission and perspective. I'm not sure I have the courage to do it.
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facing what has been done to us by those who are meant to love and protect us (in my case it was due to bad guidance from an external source - but that doesn't change the fact it was my parents who did it) is always going to be harder to do than the acts of strangers. but not facing it is still going to be the strongest chain holding us back from getting better and stronger and becoming the people we want and need to be. take small steps towards this if you need to. but i know from even just this post that you *can* do it.
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